Sanity, singleness, and sex
This actually has nothing to do with sex, I just wrote that to get your frikin' attention.
Life can be weird, and annoying, and sometimes, friggin' depressing. Watching everyone you care about, slowly, one by one, falling in love and getting married. Having no date to yet another wedding, it sometimes feels like I am a lost cause! Hopeless.
The youngest of 5, I am the only single one in my family. And. as of July, I'll be the only one not to have taken a job as executive producer in the baby factory.
So sometimes, it feels like I am alone. Like everyone is all grown up but me, the big loser who works a crappy job, who has no one to come home to, who has no one to share life with. Kinda like a wanderer. I love my family more than anything, and my nieces bring me such great joy, but sometimes, I just get jelous, or anxious, or lonely or whatever you call it. I'm 23 and have been in 6 weddings(nun of which were my own!!)
So, what have I decided? The bitterness about being 'alone', it has to go. I have to be happy for people who are lucky enough to fall in love. Because like it or, right now, I am single, and could possibly be forever, and the only thing dwelling on it will do is kill me.
I need to enjoy every single moment that I have, and God willing, someday, I may me mr. Right(or maybe just Mr. Will have me). I want to get married, and would love to have a family, but right now I don't. And every minute I spend thinking about how badly I want that, doesn't make me married. So, What to do? Enjoy life, thank God every day, and trust him. He doesn't want to destroy me, or give me a crap hole life, he is the creator of every good and perfect gift. He knows my heart and my every desire.
So, the other day, I said to God 'God, I trust you'
And that was all. Cause holding on to the bitterness, the only one it hurts is me.
Now, if you are in my situation(which I hope ure not),just enjoy life as it is today. Say thanks to God for what you have. Trust that he knows what is best for you. Stop looking at every man like he is a potential husband(I am guilty of this). And just enjoy the love of Jesus, cause unlike a man, he will satisfy u, without fail, and will NEVER let you down.
If you made it to the end of this, wow, hurray. Because I am a novelist at heart, and can never stop writting.
Have a wiked good day
Giterdun
Life can be weird, and annoying, and sometimes, friggin' depressing. Watching everyone you care about, slowly, one by one, falling in love and getting married. Having no date to yet another wedding, it sometimes feels like I am a lost cause! Hopeless.
The youngest of 5, I am the only single one in my family. And. as of July, I'll be the only one not to have taken a job as executive producer in the baby factory.
So sometimes, it feels like I am alone. Like everyone is all grown up but me, the big loser who works a crappy job, who has no one to come home to, who has no one to share life with. Kinda like a wanderer. I love my family more than anything, and my nieces bring me such great joy, but sometimes, I just get jelous, or anxious, or lonely or whatever you call it. I'm 23 and have been in 6 weddings(nun of which were my own!!)
So, what have I decided? The bitterness about being 'alone', it has to go. I have to be happy for people who are lucky enough to fall in love. Because like it or, right now, I am single, and could possibly be forever, and the only thing dwelling on it will do is kill me.
I need to enjoy every single moment that I have, and God willing, someday, I may me mr. Right(or maybe just Mr. Will have me). I want to get married, and would love to have a family, but right now I don't. And every minute I spend thinking about how badly I want that, doesn't make me married. So, What to do? Enjoy life, thank God every day, and trust him. He doesn't want to destroy me, or give me a crap hole life, he is the creator of every good and perfect gift. He knows my heart and my every desire.
So, the other day, I said to God 'God, I trust you'
And that was all. Cause holding on to the bitterness, the only one it hurts is me.
Now, if you are in my situation(which I hope ure not),just enjoy life as it is today. Say thanks to God for what you have. Trust that he knows what is best for you. Stop looking at every man like he is a potential husband(I am guilty of this). And just enjoy the love of Jesus, cause unlike a man, he will satisfy u, without fail, and will NEVER let you down.
If you made it to the end of this, wow, hurray. Because I am a novelist at heart, and can never stop writting.
Have a wiked good day
Giterdun
posted by Lisa @ 10:35 a.m.
1 Comments:
At 9:32 p.m.,
Drive by Commenter said…
Your post left me with a lot to think about...
Like, is it frikin' or friggin'?
I always thought it was friggin', but if one uses frickin', isn't it spelled "frickin" with a "c"?
Ah, the mysteries of life.
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