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Tuesday, May 24, 2005

cruelty

People can be cruel. People just seem to laugh at anything that is different than them. Sometimes, it just breaks my heart. Imagine having been born with some sort of disablity where everywhere you go, you could see people staring and laughing amongst their friends.
People are arrogant and rude, and truly think that they are worth more than others because they were so lucky to be born 'normal'.
And more than human cruelty and teasing, it is those who are Christians and still think that they are better than others that truly drives me insane. Not that I am perfect or that I have never made fun of another person, because I am not proud to say that I have. But still, when I hear a Christian talking about somebody else in a condescending way, I want to punch them in the face. I remember when I was in my final year at Bible College, it was so bad for this behaviour. I was disgusted with it all. Everytime I would walk into the kitchen, the 'cool' kids as I call them were laughing and bashing and imitating the people they thought were unworthy to be in their presence I assume. Seriously, they would take notes in class, notes of all of the stupid things that certain people would say, they would take note of anything stupid that certain people were wearing, and they would actually meet downstairs in the kitchen to ridicule these people behind their backs. I was so disgusted it made me want to puke. That year, I lost complete interest in school, I had no enjoyment in being there. I was uttertly turned off.
So my goal is to truly learn to love people. To never think that I am any better than anyone else. To stop gossiping entirely. I want to treat people equally. I dont want to be one of those people who gets a high from hurtful words. I want to love, as Christ loved. Its not easy when I am around people who are mocking others to walk away and do the right thing, not when I have about 50 funny comments running through my head that would contribute to the convo. So, to you people who know me, I beg you to hold me accountable for this, if you hear me laughing, slandering, gossping, or being rude, be bold and tell me to my face that I am being a jerk.
And to you people who think you are better than others or who find yourself caught up in making fun at others expense, I plead with you to look inside yourself, and realize that you are no more deserving of being treated well than anyone else. And if you are like me, and know it is wrong to make fun of others, but have a tendency to get caught up in the moment, I beg you to stop doing it. Walk away. Because the people you laugh at, they are people, who feel and bleed and cry just as you do.

2 Comments:

  • At 2:21 p.m., Anonymous Anonymous said…

    Since you were asking for comments I thought I'd leave one. I know what it's like to not get any comments- the only person that makes comments on my blog is my best friend Ava and she usually just writes things like "you smell" or "you're crazy"- no REAL comments. So here I am to give you a REAL comment.

    I read your blog on cruelty and you'll be happy to know that it actually stuck with me. I was talking with my friends and I was about to say something mean about someone but I thought of your blog and I decided it would be better for everyone if I just didn't say it. Since I read your blog I have probably slipped up more times than I have stopped myself from making cruel comments (especially when I look back and read my last blog on the crazy people in my life...) but at least it's got me thinking. It's definetly something that I struggle with- gossip and making fun of people. It feels like it's all in good fun but it's really not- b/c if it was just in good fun then I'd probably say these things to the person's face. So lately I've been thinking about what I say before I say it. So thanks for making me more cautious about the things that come out of my mouth, Lisa! And Good luck in your resolution to do the same.

     
  • At 8:07 p.m., Anonymous Anonymous said…

    so i am one of those ppl who mock and make fun of other's. as is everyone else in this world...to me as sad as it is...i don't get fullfillment from it. and afterwards i feel bad about it. sometimes worse than other's. but i really do belive ppl do it b/c they have no self esteem and know they aren't perfect. some outta shear thought that they are perfect and better than most, but majority b/c they don't like what they see when they look upon a mirror..it sounds rude to say it helps their ego a bit, for that one second they are possibly better than someone. and it truly is really sad as i sit and think about it. if u want to help yourself,,u ain't gonna do it by making fun of other's..b/c really those ppl are better than u by not looking at you and saying cruel things in their head. and as much as one doesn't want to admit,they think about it. im not better than anyone. as a matter of fact. i truly can say i don't like myself for the person i have grown to become and now i know just how shallow of a person i really am. ure blog got me thinking a lot actually. so im gonna attempt this "don't knock other's b/c they are different from you" who knows maybe i will feel better about myself b/c i didn't say what i was thinking. and after i master that,,,i'll work on not even thinking them at all. because everyone is the same,,no matter what they have or don't have or look like or don't look like...on the inside they have a heart like i do. and cruel things hurt, as they hurt me. so thanx for showing me just how unperfect i really am....im gonna work on it.

     

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