Heart attacks and life lessons
Yesterday, I had a heart attack. Well, probably not really a heart attack,seeing as I am still living and didnt go to the doctor, but something not cool was happening in my heart. It wasn't the first time this has happened either. Only just a little over a month ago, I had to leave work one night to go to the emergency room because my heart was all weird.
Yesterday was worse though, I was home alone, just trying to sleep, but found myself in the midst of something very weird. When I laid down, my heart started racing like crazy. I felt so weak, and when I stood up, I nearly fell over. My heart was going so crazy, I almost called 911. I thought that I was actually dying. Maybe I have some kind of heart condition I don't know about, maybe it is anxiety because I have been stressed and have a lot on my mind lately, I dont know.
But this I do know. When you are laying on your bedroom floor(on a pile of clothes since the floor is actually not visible), and you truly believe you are dying, you really start to see what is important to you. Because the last thing on my mind was how little stuff I had managed to accumilate in my short life, or how crappy my job was, what I really was thinking about was how few people i've shared Jesus with, and how easy it has become for me to be a mediocre Christian.
Although I didnt die, I thought I was. And sadly, as I sit here, my chest really hurts, so Im thinking today is going to be a lot like yesterday. But clearly, whether today or 70 years from now, one thing is certain, I am going to die. 1 out of every 1 person dies:fact. So, what matters to you? What do you want out of life? What do you value? Do you want to make money to buy stuff that will decompose along with mortal flesh? I for one, plan on investing in eternity. This body, this flesh that I wear, it comes with some downfalls; pain, suffering, wear and tear, and eventual decay. Praise God for the day we receive a new body, that will not age with time, that will not bleed and pass away.
Invest in what really matters. Life is brief. Ask any 80 year old and they will tell you, one day you wake up 20, the next you are 80.
More than anything I want my legacy to be one of love. When people think of my life, I want them to know that(though I am far from perfection!!!), that I was in love with Jesus.
My life, will end. My body, will die. My purpose? To love as Christ loved, to sacrifice, to serve, and to thank God continually for what he has done for me.
" But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. i consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ-the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship in sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection of the dead."
Philippians 3:7-11
Yesterday was worse though, I was home alone, just trying to sleep, but found myself in the midst of something very weird. When I laid down, my heart started racing like crazy. I felt so weak, and when I stood up, I nearly fell over. My heart was going so crazy, I almost called 911. I thought that I was actually dying. Maybe I have some kind of heart condition I don't know about, maybe it is anxiety because I have been stressed and have a lot on my mind lately, I dont know.
But this I do know. When you are laying on your bedroom floor(on a pile of clothes since the floor is actually not visible), and you truly believe you are dying, you really start to see what is important to you. Because the last thing on my mind was how little stuff I had managed to accumilate in my short life, or how crappy my job was, what I really was thinking about was how few people i've shared Jesus with, and how easy it has become for me to be a mediocre Christian.
Although I didnt die, I thought I was. And sadly, as I sit here, my chest really hurts, so Im thinking today is going to be a lot like yesterday. But clearly, whether today or 70 years from now, one thing is certain, I am going to die. 1 out of every 1 person dies:fact. So, what matters to you? What do you want out of life? What do you value? Do you want to make money to buy stuff that will decompose along with mortal flesh? I for one, plan on investing in eternity. This body, this flesh that I wear, it comes with some downfalls; pain, suffering, wear and tear, and eventual decay. Praise God for the day we receive a new body, that will not age with time, that will not bleed and pass away.
Invest in what really matters. Life is brief. Ask any 80 year old and they will tell you, one day you wake up 20, the next you are 80.
More than anything I want my legacy to be one of love. When people think of my life, I want them to know that(though I am far from perfection!!!), that I was in love with Jesus.
My life, will end. My body, will die. My purpose? To love as Christ loved, to sacrifice, to serve, and to thank God continually for what he has done for me.
" But whatever was to my profit I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. i consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ and be found in him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ-the righteousness that comes from God and is by faith. I want to know Christ and the power of his resurrection and the fellowship in sharing in his sufferings, becoming like him in his death, and so, somehow, to attain to the resurrection of the dead."
Philippians 3:7-11
posted by Lisa @ 7:19 a.m.
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