Sin and stuff
The blame game is great. It is so easy to blame your mistakes on someone or something outside of ureself. Think of it, someone plays hockey and looses; it was the ice surface, the bad reffing, the lack of rest before the game, the fans wernt into it...... And so goes the list. But when it comes down to it, when a team loses(I know well about this as I am a Montreal Canadians fan), they need to take ownership of their loss.
The same goes for us. We screw up somehow, and we have to blame everyone else, or just something. Like Adam and Eve all the way back then, blaming each other or the snake, when really, they were the one who made the choice to eat the stupid fruit in the first place.
Falling is hard. And even harder is owning up to your boo boo's. Because with our falls, often comes guilt, and dealing with that guilt is not fun. So it is way easier to blame some other factor. But the problem is, until we realize we are the ones who frigged up, and until we realize what we have done, we cant really find healing.
And with the acceptance of our responsibility comes an insane amount of humility. It humbles me to no end the amount of grace I need. To know that when Jesus was on the cross, he was doing that for me, thats crazy. Why would he do it? I am astounded by the mercy and grace of God. If I had never realized how filthy I truly was(and am), I would never see why I need the grace of God so much.
And what I find even harder than accepting responsibilty for my sin, is accepting forgiveness. Somehow, it seems all to easy to just ask and be forgiven. Forgiven by a perfect God, who suffered for me, who continually sins despite his awesome love. It hard to accept. It's like, sometimes in my head, I think that if Jesus had to suffer so much for my sin, I should to. So, instead of asking for forgiveness, I carry it around with me, feeling so guilty and hopeless.
But that is when I am reminded that Jesus died. No, he didn't have to, and no he didn't want to, but he did. He did because he cares for a wretch like me. Humbled by his grace. That is what I am. I come with nothing to offer God but a filthy heart, and still he chooses to love me, that is amazing.
The same goes for us. We screw up somehow, and we have to blame everyone else, or just something. Like Adam and Eve all the way back then, blaming each other or the snake, when really, they were the one who made the choice to eat the stupid fruit in the first place.
Falling is hard. And even harder is owning up to your boo boo's. Because with our falls, often comes guilt, and dealing with that guilt is not fun. So it is way easier to blame some other factor. But the problem is, until we realize we are the ones who frigged up, and until we realize what we have done, we cant really find healing.
And with the acceptance of our responsibility comes an insane amount of humility. It humbles me to no end the amount of grace I need. To know that when Jesus was on the cross, he was doing that for me, thats crazy. Why would he do it? I am astounded by the mercy and grace of God. If I had never realized how filthy I truly was(and am), I would never see why I need the grace of God so much.
And what I find even harder than accepting responsibilty for my sin, is accepting forgiveness. Somehow, it seems all to easy to just ask and be forgiven. Forgiven by a perfect God, who suffered for me, who continually sins despite his awesome love. It hard to accept. It's like, sometimes in my head, I think that if Jesus had to suffer so much for my sin, I should to. So, instead of asking for forgiveness, I carry it around with me, feeling so guilty and hopeless.
But that is when I am reminded that Jesus died. No, he didn't have to, and no he didn't want to, but he did. He did because he cares for a wretch like me. Humbled by his grace. That is what I am. I come with nothing to offer God but a filthy heart, and still he chooses to love me, that is amazing.
posted by Lisa @ 8:22 a.m.
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