Im weak
Im struggling right now, like you wouldnt believe. satan is trying to kill my faith. Ive never felt so attacked in all of my life. My sins, in all of their uglyness are being thrown in my face, constantly. The voive of satan, yelling at me, taunting me, telling me Im not good enough, telling me that Ive gone too far. Telling me that Ive missed my chance. Visions of Hell, and me burning. The feeling like I have to vomit,like I cant eat.I ve spent countless hours crying, pleading for God to save me, for God to forgive me, for God to give me joy again. I only blog about this because I thought that maybe somewhere out there someone is going through the same thing and this blog may be encouraging. Im having a moment of clarity. Guess what,I know Ive sinned, I hate my sin, I know what it deserves. But guess what, Its not about me. Its about Jesus. Jesus paid it all. Its about how good God is, not about how good Lisa is. I know God wants me to die to myself, give up myself for him. Sin is not suitable for Gods children, but it is forgiven. I have screwed up in some major ways. I have grieved the heart of God. And for that I am deeply sorry. I hate my sin, but God forgives it. Thanks from the bottom of my heart to anyone who has been praying for me. Please dont stop. I need prayers. But right now, I can tell the prayers are working.
In Christ alone
MY HOPE IS FOUND
he is my light my stregth my song
this cornerstone this solid ground
firm through the firercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
when FEARS ARE STILLED when strivings cease
my comforter, my all and all
here in the love of Christ I STAND
NO GUILT IN LIFE NO FEAR IN DEATH
this is the POWER OF CHRIST IN ME
From lifes first cry, to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
NO POWER OF HELL, NO SCHEME OF MAN
COULD EVER PLUCK ME FROM HIS HAND
Till he returns or calls me home
Here in the POWER OF CHRIST ILL STAND
In Christ alone
MY HOPE IS FOUND
he is my light my stregth my song
this cornerstone this solid ground
firm through the firercest drought and storm
What heights of love, what depths of peace
when FEARS ARE STILLED when strivings cease
my comforter, my all and all
here in the love of Christ I STAND
NO GUILT IN LIFE NO FEAR IN DEATH
this is the POWER OF CHRIST IN ME
From lifes first cry, to final breath
Jesus commands my destiny
NO POWER OF HELL, NO SCHEME OF MAN
COULD EVER PLUCK ME FROM HIS HAND
Till he returns or calls me home
Here in the POWER OF CHRIST ILL STAND
posted by Lisa @ 11:22 p.m.
3 Comments:
At 10:58 a.m.,
Ben said…
Hang in there Lisa, I'm praying for you.
At 10:17 p.m.,
Robbie Sevilla said…
Hey Lisa, you're not alone in the world with struggling with sin and it is awesome that you would share it with others. I think it takes a lot of guts. For myself, I like to look at Psalm 36 everytime I need to be reminded about things I struggle with. Just because it talks about the love of God and how he will provides in time of hardships. Hang in there, I'll be praying for you!
At 11:06 p.m.,
Tyler said…
Lisa, I pray you overcome any problems you're being faced with. You're a great girl.
I had to do a large devotion today, I guess my message was that, even though we are so small, and there are billions of us in this world today, God wants to know each and everyone of us. He's there when you're born, he's there as you make your first mistake. He's there when you sin, he's there when you look for him. He's alwayst there to catch you when you fall.
God is so HUGE, and he's created so many things, and yet, he cares for us. He listens to your prayers, and I'm sure He'll help you overcome whatever problems you're facing.
I pray that He does.
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