winter is here

so winter is here. The freezing has already begun, give it a couple of weeks and Ill be into my winter jacket again. Its like the worst time of year, because it is getting pretty chilli outside, but the stores still have the air conditioning cranked. The other day I went to the movies to see Invincible, which by the way I really thought was good, and I nearly froze to death. K people, really is time to turn off the A.C. And at work, my fingers have already started turning purple. Dont even get me started on work. Jeepers. On Saturday, I was working to close which is at 5:30, David was waiting for me outside to head out to a wedding reception. Anyway, I was locking the front doors and putting up the closed sign when these two ladies walk in, I politely say, 'actually, we are closed now'. They didnt care, they just walked right in and started shopping. I was so angry, I almost lost my job that day, cause I almost punched some customers right in the face. Yup, I was weighing the decision in my head, it was almost worth loosing my job over. Yup.

So anyway, I hate the cold and stupid customers. Can ypu tell Im cranky????? I feel like I should say something positive. Nah.......

I dont want to be luke warm. I want to be on fire. Sometimes, looking at my life really scares me. Im not bold, Im not very kind a lot of the time, Im kinda lazy and not really that faithul. Thanks for the sermon today Ben.
Sometimes, it feels like because Christianity is not new, like it has had a couple of thousand years to sink into peoples head and into the routine of like, that for a large part it has become complacent. Imagine being around when Jesus came, seeing him heal the sick, raise the dead, save the sinners. Imagine the freshness of not being chained to the law which could never fully erase sin. But me, Ive heard about JEsus all my life, its like Ive always known that he was there.
I'm getting a new Bible, with no underlining, and no study materials and I am going to read it. I am going to reaquaint myself with the Jesus who walked on water, feed 5000, and loved enough to give himself for me.
I dont want to be lukewarm, I want to be on fire. I want to not be able to shut about the greatness of Jesus. I dont want to be just some "good" person who doesnt drink and curse and who goes to church on Sunday. I want to be in love with Jesus.

Church

I have become the blogger who never blogs!!!! I guess because I really dont know what to say.

Here is my latest rant. I hate the way church buildings are set up and the way church services take place. I dont like the auditorium set up. It really encourages the idea that we are going there to be entertained. Church is so much about the people, but the design makes it so official, it almost discourages fellowship. I just dream of a place where people go and pray together, talk about their lives, encourage each other, and read the bible together. I envision a place where we can help each other to grow. Not a place where we just sit and watch and listen. I dunno, I guess when I read the new testament I just feel like the church was so much more that what it is today. I dont picture the apostles and believers sitting through services and putting on a happy face and their 'best' clothes. I picture the church being so active, so alive. Now it seems all that it is is just tradition. It seems like now we spend so much time and effort maintaining our beautiful buildings, and build programs that will get us more people, that we have somehow left the idea of the church as Christ had intended behind.
Tonight I am going to college and career. I suppose I would say that I am going to church. Where believers are gathered to fellowship and strengthen each other. Going to church is a weird term. For some people, it is all about a sunday morning service, that is church. But God does not live in a building, and his church is not a man made building. Take away all the tradition and all the garbage and politics, take away the pews and the communion tables, strip down the stage where people perform, and burn down the very walls, and you know what you got? The church!
(in no way do I promote the arsen of church buildings, just trying to prove my point)